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С] Anonymous 12/20/22(Tue)11:58:31 №.69315986 >>69316001 >>69316067 >>69316068
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>40 on date with an grill (first time in years)
EEE
>actually goes well somehow, she finds my particular brand of autism charming i guess
>end of the date i walk her home and at the door she asks me if i want to come up (literally almost
blacking out from anxiety at this point but manage to say yes without spilling all my spaghetti)
>sit on her couch and she starts kissing me
>i freeze at first, last time i kissed an gril was 9 years ago
>finally snap out of it, kiss her back
>pick her up (thx squats deads) walk her to her bedroom
>lay her down
>get on top of her
>kissing
>think of alphas in movies and how they kiss women. put my hand on her throat as we're kissing. she seems into it
>think of ryan gosling in drive, try to think of something cool and mysterious to say
>i pull back from kissing her, hand still on her throat, and the words that come out of my mouth are
>i want to hurt you
>she just stares at me for a couple of seconds
>peels my fingers off my throat and says yeah i think you should
>say o-okay and get up and shuffle out her door
>sitting at the bustop now writing this out
GOING TO KILL